not solved, but doing better...

I think writing my feelings with not letting anything hold me back has helped, at least for today. I have felt better emotionally. I called the dr. today and Steve is going to pick up my new prescription. YEA!!!! Hope it works. If it works like lexapro, I will be in heaven.

I made a decision today that I would end my maintenance period of the HCG diet, meaning I am done. I know I only 5 more days, but I thought about it A LOT and feel good about it. I am not going to gorge on food that I haven't had, but eat in moderation. Today I went to Costco and tried their samples. For some reason, I felt freed. In a week or so, I will join Weight Watchers, but I want to not worry about counting points or anything like that. I did buy some splenda to help slowly work in my sugars, so I will be either halving it with regular sugar or just splenda. I also bought some weight watchers treats.

I do APPRECIATE ALL the comments people have made regarding this phase of my life with the HCG diet. It has been a very hard road, but one that I hope to learn from.... DON'T GET THAT FAT AGAIN. I still have a long way to go with reaching my goal weight, but now I can do it with self confidences. I feel more beautiful on the inside and outside that I have in a long time.

My love goes to everyone that has supported me in this endeavor and hope to continue to get the support I need. I hope I can return the favor to anyone who needs it.